being an artist

Being an artist is a vulnerable thing. There is such an interrelationship between the expression of one’s soul & psyche onto the canvas and the resultant creation; that if one’s self esteem is a little fragile, fluctuating or fledgling, the art may reflect that. Other’s may not see it, but our honed, creative intuition minds-eye, see’s the fragility in the trailing paint map left behind from one’s extension of the soul…our hand. It’s a constant loop-back dance from the heart, through the hand, to the canvas; back to the eye, to the soul, through the heart and so forth. So many factors impact on this. That is why, when an artist is in the zone/in the flow; it’s best not to interrupt. The flow experience is the artist in their purest truth, divinely connected and authentically expressing from their soul. No persona, core belief-driven ego mind, filtering their eyes and mind in what they see. They are not ‘seeing’ when they are in the flow…not consciously anyway. They are feeling, being; symbiotic with the tool and substrate, until they break themselves out of their reverie.

At this moment, they are as one is, upon waking…gentle, unguarded, soft, receptive, vulnerable and unencumbered. The conscious filters not yet pricked into action. But they come back. And back they come at times with a vengeance. A harsh word from a loved one, a knock back at work, an error in judgement, too little sugar, not enough exercise, weight gain, repeated set backs in life…and so on…Life. The artist as a conduit, is most precious and priceless; full of possibility. But it is a hard path to walk. Battered by the constant flux of dipping into divine truth and knowing and crashing back to the harshness of the limiting ego mind and back again. It is exhausting. But the taste of wondrous, bliss, brings us back…even with knowing that we will feel like crap again and again and again. Yet, the jagged face of the steep mountain is worth surpassing over and over. Each time the depths of discovery and unveiling become more rewarding and it will keep calling to us. And the ego minds pull, gets a little smaller. This. Another truth. x Tanya