I am 42 in one week…eek!!
I have spent my whole life ‘doing the right thing’, subconsciously pleasing others. My parents influenced my early decision not to enroll in Fine Art at University, rather, to pursue the sciences. I made what I thought was a ‘sensible’ decision at the time. Little did I know that I would bury my creative self along with a peaceful soul for many years to come. Over the years of carving out my career, when time permitted, I would dabble with painting. However, my confidence was gone. My belief in my artistic ability had gone. Yet in those brief moments of creating, I did tap back into that beautiful, in the moment, soul-centered place.
Well. I have found my way back!
Having my three children and being a stay at home mum has given me a pause in the ‘work’ arena long enough to let creative urges and musings surface once more. The whispers have got stronger and I have noticed that when I start to honour my body and live healthily and put myself first, amazing things take place. A rush of inspiration and a tangible urge, no…absolute need, bursts forth to create. So much so, that sleep is no longer as important.
Finally these whispers have my full attention. It is time to stop the slow, suffering of my soul and devote some planning to becoming whole. I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, a health professional, a wife, a mother and most importantly, I am me. Me, I, as a little girl, first found joy and contentment making elaborate lifts out of my fathers Emu Export Beer Cartons so that my barbie doll could go up the 2 story apartment that I had made for her. A little girl who through her eyes she saw detail and shape and shadow and features, which captured her attention and interest enough to want to spend hours sketching people and animals and all things with inherent and observed beauty.
A part of this little girl has been lost all these years.
This blog is a celebration, a pathway and a conduit of rediscovering that little girls happy place…my happy place. It is a journey to bring my life in full circle and pull all the parts of me together, so that I am no longer fragmented. My intention is to meld my ‘career’ with my artistic self and bring along with it, my family and friends and my life and to be able to offer my ‘whole’ self to my patients whom I care about and for.
I hope to share this journey with you and I very much look forward to reflecting back further down the track to see where I have gone.
I am very excited.