I have an apology to make. Whilst all buoyed up from the energy of New Year’s eve’s resolution making, I had planned to post daily on the things I am grateful for in life. I posted the first few days, missed a couple, doubled up on posts and then missed a heap of days.
Sorry if you were actually following my posts. Life got in the way for a couple of the missed days and then something really big happened.
I got a phone call last Saturday morning from my friend. She was crying and in a voice I have never heard her speak in before, she told me that her husband had passed away over night. I yelled out “No, No! I will be right over!”
Such a shock. Such a shock. I am still shaking my head in disbelief. We had only just seen him. He was a fit 72 year old man with no known health problems. I realize for some of you, you might be thinking “72…why be shocked?” He was a health conscious man who had been eating a vegan and raw diet for over 3 years.
I think the shock is because it happened so instantaneously. He had sat outside the evening before having a sunset drink. He ate his dinner and watched TV and went to bed as normal. His wife, my friend, had no forewarning that he would be taken from her in the middle of the night. She did not have a chance to say all those things she might of, had she had any inkling that their time together was about to stop short.
My shock is because of her shock and utter disbelief. I shared and felt her pain that morning. I mourned for a man who was a constant in our community. A helpful and smiling man. The man that made my friend happy.
I have never experienced loss close at hand. It stopped all of us in our tracks this week. It made us stop mid thought and realize how absolutely precious and impermanent life really is. It made us look at each other through different eyes. It made us worry for one another. It made us love each other harder.It made us appreciate and it made us fully understand the meaning of the word ‘GRATEFUL’.
I write this post both as an explanation as to why I haven’t posted over the past week as well as reminder for me to come back and reread it at a later date and to appreciate why I should always keep in the forefront of my mind why I am grateful.
Blessed are we, peace and love to my friend. I share her grief to lower her hearts heaviness.
ps. I will not be doing posts on a daily basis at the moment.